Have I Found Myself?

As this school year comes to a close, I ponder:
Have I finally found myself?
Or have I lost a part of me because of all the chaos?

Maybe...maybe I've figured out who I can be, but lost some aspects of my life in the process. Yet, at the same time, gained so much.

See, confusion, no way of getting around it.


~ Kyla (June 11, 2009)

Scream My Name

Someone scream my name.
Someone say, "I need you."
Someone say, "I want you."
Someone say, "I love you."
Somebody tell me I mean something to them.
Somebody say I've turned their world upside down.
Somebody let me know that if I left, they would miss me.
Somebody tell me that I'm worth it all.
Somebody...anybody...Scream My Name.


~Kyla (May 18, 2009)

Catching Butterflies

You wait for so long to catch butterflies. Then one decides to sit upon your shoulder for awhile, but it turns out it's not the one you were hoping for. So you wait even longer until one day, that rare species comes fluttering down and lands on your heart...


~Kyla (April 3, 2009)

Familiar Uneasiness

Standing there in perfect content, I looked up. Immediately I began feeling all funny inside. I bit the bottom of my lip to hide the awkwardness that was building up inside of me. It was a strange uneasiness. However, the feeling was not new. It was not one of unfamiliarity, but one that had been placed into a box, just waiting for a chance to show itself again. I would be sticking around to explore it a bit more and see how it had changed. There was even a possibility that the exposure of it would change me. For the good or the bad? I hoped that it had come out to shed some light onto my happiness...


~Kyla (end of March '09)

Passage to My World

1 week total...wasted
3 pieces of paper, front and back...wasted
All the ink in a blue pen...wasted

All wasted on an impossible dream...

Why did I waste so much? Because it was my outlet, it was my way out of the real world. It was the one passage I could sneak through. It led me to a different world, MY world. A place where no one could tell me what was acceptable, and what was frowned upon. A sanctuary where no one's opinion mattered. It was a garden I could be absolutely free in...

But once that bell rang, my mind would quickly race back to the corridor that led to reality...


~Kyla (mid March of '09)

Adapt

Things are happening... People are changing... Feelings are mixing... There is not much we can do about it. We all just have to accept that life is never going to stay the same for too long. If you can't adapt, then you are never going to survive.


~Kyla (March 8, 2009)

Time to Let Go...

I didn't know what to do with my life anymore. My world was shattering around me. I was suffocating. I wanted, I needed, to get out. But I couldn't find the way. Where was my exit plan?

There was none. It was just time for me to let go...


~Kyla (March 4, 2009)